My God My Everything

The holidays always tend to be extra busy and it seems like more demands are made all the time.  In the travel industry it is the busy season and that’s expected.  But, no matter how planned out or prepared I might feel, it always seems to stress me out and I feel burned out and relieved when they are over.   As I answer phones or help customers in my office, I always say, “How can I help you?”  It’s said with sincerity and I do want to do the best I can for them.  In addition to customers there are family responsibilities, holiday events and expectations to add to…

I was watching a commercial about St. Jude’s Hospital the other night and several cute little cancer patients were speaking out against that terrible disease.  Each little person pulled on my heart strings.  One mother was crying and said she wonders if her child will make it.  My heart was breaking for her, I’ve been there and felt that.  My heart goes out to each of them and the road ahead for them.  Regardless of the outcome it’s a hard road.   Later that night while relaxing in a hot bubble bath the question came to mind, “Do you have the same heart towards the lost?”  Does the thought of…

After receiving a much needed lesson in prayer and Holy Expectation, my heart began to soften towards others and I took some time to really talk with God about the people He had placed on my heart.  He has blessed me with more than I need so that I can be a blessing to others, not so I can sit back and say, “I’m fine.  I have no requests.  My life is blessed.”   I limited my own understanding of who Jesus is and what He can do based on my own human logic.  People issues can be hard and messy and at times I really don’t want to deal…

As the packing and moving continued I was excited to begin a new bible study called “Finding I Am” by Lysa Terkeurst.   It had videos that were filmed in Israel and it was a highlight of my day to spend some time each morning seeing and hearing the message.  The lessons continued the work of remodeling my heart and mind.  I was beginning to see the parallels of physically and spiritually moving.   Both were exciting and challenging.  I had an idea of how I thought things would go, my expected scenarios, and then of course the unknown was always present.  Things do not always go according to plan and…

With my mind firmly set to move and knowing without a doubt that it was God’s will, the process began.  Fixing little details, preparing the home to be sold, showing the home to prospective buyers and downsizing.   We decided to buy an older home and remodel it rather than build a new one.  I liked that idea better because it gave us  more options with a lower house payment, opportunities to recreate living space and work together.   But moving is simply challenging, even when it’s God’s will.   I believe that God orchestrates things all the time.  Whether it’s a book I read, a bible study I begin or…

My Sunshine Prophesy was amazing and should have been enough for me to say, “Yes Lord!  I’ll move with a joyful heart.”  But that wasn’t the case.  Instead I was stunned by God’s reply and it took a bit of time to digest all that He gave me.   I went home and began to talk with Tracy about looking at the property and I was trying to explain what I was thinking and feeling, but it didn’t come out that way.  He could not understand why I was resistant to a new home, most women would love to have a new home.  He was very frustrated with me and…

I recently read “Chase The Lion” by Mark Batterson.  It was very challenging and I found myself wanting to get out of my comfort zone and experience new things.  For quite awhile I have had the idea of writing in the back of my mind.  It started before I wrote Brock’s Story and has remained ever since.   When we moved I had to give up the ladies bible study group that had been meeting for several years and I really miss those ladies.  The idea of a blog meant that we could still be connected and that was exciting.  The only problem was I had no idea how to set…