Letting Go

While packing I came across a letter I had written to Brock in 2008.  It mentioned all the times we spent in our rocking chair and how precious it was to me.  Then it mentioned letting go of something in order to move on.  Never forgetting – but moving forward in a healing way.  Oh how the tears flowed.

The house we bought was smaller than our current home and would require that we downsize the furniture and household items that we would bring with us.  The rocking chair would not be going with us.  I couldn’t give it to a thrift store because I was too attached.  I prayed about my emotions and what to do with the chair and the answer was to ask my sister.  I spoke with Audra about it and she said she would love to have it, she liked glider rockers and always wanted one, what better one than Brock’s.  Thank you Lord!

I hadn’t slept well for weeks and at 2 am I went downstairs with a headache from the hives and body aches from moving boxes.   I wrapped up in a blanket and rocked in my husband’s chair.  Then I shared my feelings with God.  He listened to me and reminded me that He’s got this – I can trust Him.  His word for me was:

Psalms 91: 1-4 (Message)

 “You who sit down in the High God’s presence,
    spend the night in Shaddai’s shadow,
Say this: “God, you’re my refuge.
    I trust in you and I’m safe!”
That’s right—he rescues you from hidden traps,
    shields you from deadly hazards.
His huge outstretched arms protect you—
    under them you’re perfectly safe;
    his arms fend off all harm.”

It was as if He was there rocking me – comforting me and helping me see and experience His peace in the midst of all the change.   His huge, loving outstretched arms were wrapped around me letting me know that it was okay to let go and trust that He will provide.

We met the new buyers of our home several times and in those meetings God continued to pour out His peace on me about letting go.   The man asked why we were moving and we told him it was time and the plan when we built that home was always to sell, the market was finally cooperating.  He said,  “I plan on living here until I die.  This home is just perfect.”  That is just what you want to hear when you sell a home.  I knew all our hard work on the home and property were greatly appreciated and that they would make it their home.

God was teaching me to let go.  The home and furnishings had served many purposes in the time we had them, but it was time to move forward and that meant letting go.  We didn’t need those things for the next chapter.   He would be providing something different.  So as we continued to give away items it became exciting to see who God intended them to go to.   Packing became enjoyable times of going down memory lane together and the unpacking…..well that would have to wait, but it would be a whole new adventure.

My prayer

Micah 7:7 – But as for me, I will look to the Lord; 

 I will wait for the God of my salvation; my God will hear me

Father,  I thank you for being my comforter, my Father and my Prince of Peace.  You know when I need instruction, correction or just held and there is no better place than in your loving arms.  Thank you for opportunities to change and for the excitement of what lies ahead.  I love you Lord.  Amen

Where does my help come from?

Philippians 4:7

“And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding,

will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”